Dear Nick,

I miss you, my heart is sad, my love is like a bird and a fish, explain why i miss you so much.

Ok the universe may not hate me...

He likes me, he really likes me!!!!! He he he he he he

Gotta love me some self respect

Got some, love it. Epiphanies are great.

Will you please leave me and my major alone?

BAH parentals are annoying and don't understand that if I don't want to do something then I won't try, code for: I don't want to major in education. I belong in theatre I love theatre and I love stage managing and props DAMN IT!

The long socks make everything better

Went to orientation... Kind of a disappointment; I don't know, I didn't really get to know anybody, and I felt alone. I guess I am just overwhelmed, maybe I just don't play well with others. I am really excited about my schedule though, it is pretty good. Only good thing, well there was a cute boy named Kyle, but that won't happen as I most likely won't see him again. *Sigh* just feeling mopey. And I kinda miss- no never mind.

Oh universe, how you are cruel.

Yes I know, most of my blogs involve boys, but hey, I am a female teenager... What do you expect? So into my story of the cruelness of the universe...

Once upon a time...

No not really but here we go.

It all starts with a cartoon, Avatar the Last Airbender to be exact. Any way, my best friend and I (my best friend is male) decided to watch all of these cartoons before the movie came out (the movie was horrible don't go see it). Though we were unable to succeed in watching all of them, we did spend a crazy amount of time together. Then, after all that I slowly realized that I had feelings for him... Yeah this is not good, seeing as I have been friends with him since the 6th grade, and we just graduated High school... Bah really not good. To add a cherry on top of the pie, or ice cream (depending on your preference) he has a girlfriend. But no, he doesn't like her, and she doesn't like him... any more that is. He is just too afraid to break up with her and the same goes for her (I am friends with both of them, so I hear about this alllll the time). They had sex, and during sex, bonding endorphins (Oxytocin) are released, creating a bond with your sexual partner, I believe this is why they are reluctant to break up, they have also been dating for more than a year, so it is understandable, you know? Any way, back to my awesome story, and I would also like to interject that she has an eye infection and has to wear an eye patch... heh heh heh (I am a slightly terrible person)

The thing is, I think he likes me too, but that doesn't really matter. Yet I will explain why I think he likes me. Lots of tickling, the hug thing (when a guy hugs you he can either let his hands drag over your body or let go immediately, it is my belief that if a guy drags his hands, he has at least some feelings for you), and the talking (asking of strange questions), it doesn't matter though.

So until now you are probably thinking, "shut up girl, your life isn't that bad, the universe just dislikes you, it doesn't hate you!" but no, here is the kicker, and it really isn't bad seeing that I enjoyed it... I enjoyed it quite a bit.

Last night I was hanging out with one of my ex-boyfriends and we have a bad habit of kissing and other such things when we are together alone. It is a problem. Any way, we had made it all the way back to his house (we were driving around aimlessly, talking, and singing. We had even gone back to the place that we went to instead of prom, and nothing happened), and I was hitting him with my hair and then he started to kiss me. And other things, but any way my point is the world is ironic. At this time last year, I would have gone crazy if that had happened, but now I am too obsessed with my best friend do even think about it, oh the irony. Though it was very nice... and I was an hour late for my curfew...

The search for the perfect Kebab recipe

In my long days of summer, seeing as I have a very part time job (babysitting twice a week), I tend to spend a ridiculous amount of time on the computer. During this time, I look up things that have long irritated me, shop, facebook, blog, and watch Netflix (the 5th season of Bones isn't out, this is slowly destroying my life). I have been trying to find a Kebab recipe; no, not a Kebab recipe, a Kebab shell recipe, I have been unable to find such a thing, and it is another example of how the Internet has let me down. This may come as a shock to those of you who are in love with the Internet, but I really have no use for it.

True I do spend most of my time on here, but really I have about 4 websites I visit, (unless I am doing some rambunctious googleing, then I go on any number of sites... Must remember to figure out how to turn on firewall) so I tend to get bored quite easily. BLAST! another dead end, gah you elusive recipe I will find you and you will love me!!!

I know, I am obsessed, but with my family doing a weight loss competition, it seems all I can think about is food. GRRR. I've had cake twice today, yes I know I have no will power. As of this moment I am waiting for my television show to buffer, frustrating really, I mean blech! Why must it spend so much time loading? Oh yes that is right... BECAUSE I live in the middle of nowhere!!!! WAIT... I think I found a recipe!! Now I must find a sauce recipe! This is looking up.

Operation Shrew's Breath

So the other day, my friends and I cupcaked a car... The car of my ex-boyfriend. Sad yet true, hey I thought it was funny, and considering cupcakes don't really cause damage to cars I thought they would see it as a joke, a prank, it was April Fools day after all, but no, all this drama and anger wow, makes me kinda sad.

Sadness in the world, it happens, but why?

Since my Sophomore year, there has been at least one death a year; either from car accidents or shootings. Why is it that people only care about a person after they have gone from this planet, how easily we forget about what is important. We are simple creatures who are designed to care only for ourselves, if we could forget that fact for a day only, what a difference we could make.

So many things in this world don't make sense, for example, why is my music skipping? gah.