Blog Posting... 101

It interests me that one can pour a heart and soul into a key board, and it might mean the entire world to them... But to others it really doesn't matter. I think I am going to like having a blog, really it is a way to say what you need to with out fear that someone who you know is going to come and yell at you about it, (unless you give them the URL, but then that would be your own fault now wouldn't it?) so you can gossip, say what you really feel, speak your mind. So let us step into the slightly demented world that is mine.

My friend Kaylee is getting married in eight days, she is only 18 (yes I know you are supposed to pick one, to write out the number or just use the number but I'm the one writing this so, I really don't care). Do I approve? No. I am her Maid of Honor, does this seem odd to any one else. Now I really wouldn't have a problem with this if I believed that he was good for her, but... He has cheated on her twice, and she hasn't seen him in eight months. I guess it really isn't my business, I just think she is making a big mistake and I can't do anything about it because she is just so accepting. I guess the important thing is that she is happy, I can just hope that everything works out alright and that if the wedding does indeed happen (yes there is still some speculation on that point) she rocks it and doesn't look back.

Moving on

Karla... I guess she is one of my best friends and yet she is such a drama queen, but that's what I love her for. Any way we had a bon-fire, out at the lake, we had all our friends out and we, you know were talking. And this girl, Chelsey, started talking and gossiping about one of my very close friends, why? I mean I know why, gossip is fun and everything but it came out of no where, she just randomly started talking about her in a silent time it... It just made me mad and I know I do it too but still at least I am trying a new way of doing it. Ok that made me sound like I think I am better then her... I guess I am a teenage girl.

Kaylee... Again... Well we have been friends for a very long time, and no why would I even talk about that I am over him and I don't need to mention it, and so my loyal readers, I may talk about him, and let you in on how my heart was broken, but not now.

The start of school. Yes 7 days untill the start of my senior year. Am I excited? Why yes I was untill I went and got my schedual. And I realized these people are the people I have been seeing for the past three years. Nothing is really going to change. Sure I look different and I have gotten reasonably cute (on a scale of one to ten I would say I am a 7.65, yes that sounds about right), but I have decided to just have fun, and not care about what these fools think, it is only one more year and then I will be gone! I really need to relocate to a place that has better shopping, and something to do past 9:00 P.M. it is really sad when the funnest (most fun?) thing in town (for the under 21 crowd atleast) is go and hang out in the Wal*Mart parking lot.

Keegan. He is a different spiecies, I really need to stop bothering him. Well here is the thing his idea of a perfect world (or his Utopia) is one where he runs the world in a little room and once a year all the women come into the room while he is asleep and they have their way with him. Yes he is very anti-sex. It makes me laugh, so of course I flirt with him. I need to stop, making a menatal note.

Ryan, the boy I am infatuated with, of course he is a Foot Ball player. Will he ever go out with me? No, not the theatre freak, (because that is what I am) I might as well forget about it, I mean why waste the time and energy on a guy who won't even hang out with me as a friend? Oh yes that is right, because I have been infatuated with him (atleast to some degree) since the eight grade, oh well I'll get over it... NOT.

Tyler, my best friend. He is leaving for college on sunday, I am going to miss him greatly, he was the one (along with paul, who likes me now... sad day) who helped me out with the whole Errol thing. He is my hubby, and now he is leaving. I wish he would tell me what he thinks, he sometimes just shuts up and won't let me in. AHHH talk about frustration.

My family. Alright three brothers, brother one, great job going to be making about 200,000 some dollars a year soon. Brother two, getting married in Jamaica next June (yes excited for the tanning). Brother three, I hate. He got into drugs and that screwed up his mind, so now he is slow, and won't leave. He is able to support himself (he is on socil security) and has an appartment, but he hangs out at our house all the time. I just want him to get out and leave, I am so mean to him. I can hear myself and I know that I am but I can't help it, not after what he put my parents through.
My mom and I used to be really close, but now she gets mad when I want to hang out with my friends instead of her. It sucks and I just want things to go back to the way they used to be.

The demented email. So the story behind the demented email... I was at a Guitar Hero party at Shelby S's (there is also a Shelby W.) and Chuck was there and he emailed me later that night (on Facebook, yes I am a Facebooker...) GARG and it was about an inside joke that had happened earlier that night, but come on, that means somethign right? Ok checking email... (I have Dial Up so it takes along time, but we are supposed to be getting wirerless soon) Ahhh still loading, but it's not like I think this kid is a soul mate or anything, but I kind of liked him last year so maybe it could be something. Ok this is taking way too long you can find out next entry if he emailed me. Oh look it loaded, no he hasn't replied yet.

Theatre, yes that is what I am planning on majoring in, will I be able to get a job? Probably not but at least I'll love what I am doing. The "auditions" for You're a Good Man Charlie Brown are September third, I'm going to be cast as Snoopy. Holter Casts everybody during the previous year, yep... Kind of depressing, (not the role, but the fact that he does that) this year his daughter is going to be on an internship in the senate, so I don't have to worry about her. Ali is amazing though, she is the only one I am worried about, (yes there is more important stuff to worry about but this is my life right now) there are only 6 roles and it is a cross town production.

Alright that is enough for right now, good night my darlings.